Even though I've seen the healing and felt the progress I've made over the past 17 months since Dennis died, it wasn't until recently that I've started feeling "whole" again. And I attribute my new found feelings to Daniel, my 20-year old massage friend that I wrote about a couple articles ago. Now that we've seen each other a few times, I've come to realize that he is a cosmic present from Dennis, who didn't like seeing me in my depressed state. It makes perfect sense to me. I don't know if anyone who reads this will agree with me, but you know what? I don't really give a shit what other people think. All I know is I've felt better in the past month than I have at any time since Dennis died. Daniel really makes my spirit soar. And the more we see each other, the more we each realize that it's more than a "massage/client" relationship that is forming. We like each other and are becoming friends. When he was over the other night, we sat and talked for the first 30 minutes he was here, talking about all kinds of things. I even told him how I was feeling and that he was the reason I was feeling so great. I told him my theory of a "gift from Dennis" and he thought it was pretty neat that I felt that way. He reached over and patted my hand and said, "I'm very glad I make you feel this way, Rick. Thanks for telling me that; it makes me feel special."
Once I realized how much time had elapsed, I said, "Hey Daniel, if we don't shut up, we'll never get the massage in. You about ready?"
He replied with a big smile and said, "Yeah, Rick. Let's do it."
I offered him the use of the bathroom before we went into the bedroom. I was surprised when he came out, because he was already naked. I said, "Oh wow, you're naked already."
He replied, "I'm sorry Rick."
"Nothing to be sorry about, Daniel. I just wasn't expecting you to be naked when you came out of the bathroom. We've been getting undressed in the bedroom previously. It's no big deal to me; it's not like I've never seen you naked before," I stated, with a little grin on my face.
Once he started the massage, I noticed he was doing more techniques than he had previously and I told him that I noticed and complimented him on his advancement in his massage work. Not only was the massage more therapeutic than before, he keeps surprising me with little things. I could tell the massage was over because he had taken my right hand and I suddenly felt a warm tongue and mouth sucking my fingers. It was very erotic and unexpected. I looked up at him and said, "You keep surprising me. That was real nice. I also have a confession to make, Daniel."
"What's that, Rick?"
"Remember last time you were here? After the massage, I couldn't resist and just started licking your ass with my tongue. That was the first time I've ever rimmed anyone, but I just couldn't help myself. Your ass looked so inviting, I just dove right in. I got the feeling though that you didn't mind."
"Not at all, Rick. Considering it was your first time, you did a great job."
Breaking into a big grin, I said, "Well I'm glad you liked it, because I'm ready to dive back in."
And that's what I did. I'm also a very polite sex partner, as I asked him if it was okay if I fucked him again, and he was readily agreeable to that too. Needless to say, my encounters with Daniel are starting to move to another level. I have no plans of starting a "relationship" with him, but we both are enjoying each other in many ways. He was heading to Yosemite for the long weekend with friends, but we agreed to get together for brunch in the near future. He also wants to go to a Giants game, so we will do that too.
I am fully convinced that Daniel's entrance into my life is meant to be. At the moment, I definitely feel that he's too young for me to seriously consider having a relationship with, but I'm definitely pursuing this friendship for all it's worth. And enjoying every minute of it.
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